the thing is that I wanted that thing way before anyone noticed it..
and then they started noticing it,but the difference between us was the fact that they made it public(to literally everyone😭😭)
but I never talked about it!
and till' this day,I still stayed quiet even though my heart longs for it..
and I secretly HATE the fact that everyone now notice that one thing..
specially one specific rival!
I don't like this feeling,the lack of knowledge,the way that I can't connect to it while my heart jumps when I witness that things' presence..
the only one that I have with me is god now..as always.
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هیچوقت فکر نمیکردم دیدن سر بی موی مامانم انقدر بهت زده ام کنه. چقدر گریه کنم؟چقدر ناله بزنم؟چقدر توس
خدایا هنوز برام عادی نشده ها..!
هنوز ناراحتما..هنوز از اینکه مامانم نه میتونه غذا بخوره نه میتونه بلند شه از سر جاش عذابم میده ها.
از اینکه هی دوره ی شیمی درمانی ـش طولانی تر و طولانی تر میشه دلخورما..!