Im not sure if i can say it...

F**k

I'll say it anyway

Everybody tries to tell me that im going through a phase , i dont know if its a phase... i just wanna feel okay

I battle with depression but the question still remains is this post traumatic stressing or am i suppressing rage? My doctor tries to tell me that im going through a phase... ITS NOT A F**KING PHASE i just wanna feel okay, OKAY?

I struggle with this BULLSH**T everyday And its probably because my demons simultaneously rage...

It obliterates me... Disintegrates me. Annihilates me.

Cause im about to break down, im searching for a way out...im a liar im a cheater im a non-bebeliever..

I break down...falling into love now with falling apart ...

I think im going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze every wall that i knock down is just a wall that i replace im in a race against myslef i try to keep a steady pace how the f**k will i escape if i never close my case? Oh my god i keep on stressing every second that i waste is another second sooner to a blessing i wont take ..

But my therapist will tell me that im going through a stage.. Yeah, Its not a f**king stage I just wanna feel okay, okay?

Mother***er now you got my attention I need to change a couple things cause something is missing and what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine.. Every single f***ing day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified...