قهوهی دیازپام
Sometimes I feel like I can't feel
This isn't real, I should be hurting
I was alone, I was a song
Music and bone, God's perfect wording
And could the people understand this?
I'm as bruised as a used up canvas
I'm awfully nice but I'm cold as ice
I've been through hell but I'll be alright
People here living it up, I think they're blind
I think they're out of their minds
Not one of them has had this
God's not giving me up, no, I'm just fine
It's just a matter of time
Though I don't feel my sadness
I know it should be there, maybe I'm too tired to care
But I'm still fine
I'm on display, I've lost my way
Oh God, I pray, let this pass over
I lost the note, I rocked the boat
I've even choked, I lost my composure
People here living it up, I think they're blind
I think they're out of their minds
Not one of them has had this
God's not giving me up, no, I'm just fine
It's just a matter of time
Though I can't feel my sadness
I know it should be there, maybe I'm too tired to care
Maybe I've been giving my love and all my time
Yeah, yeah, know I'm stronger in the long run
Oh, but father, I'm afraid you picked the wrong one
People here living it up, I think they're blind
I think they're out of their minds
Not one of them has had this
God's not giving me up, no, I'm just fine
It's just a matter of time
Though I can't feel my sadness
I know it should be there, maybe I'm too tired to care
Maybe I've been giving my love and all my time
Oh, I know I should be scared, maybe I'm too tired to care
But still I'm fine, oh, oh, I'm still fine
زمان خواهد گذشت و من خواهم ماند.
در کنج خانه ای با سو سوی نور، از خود خواهم پرسید که ″چطور شد آنقدر از خودت فاصله گرفتی، چه اتفاقی برایت افتاد که این گونه خفقان گرفته ای؟ چطور کسی را پیدا نکردی که گوش هایش را به تو بدهد؟ چطور کسی را پیدا نکردی که کاری را برایت انجام دهد که تو برای تک تک انسان های کوچک و دوست داشتنی ات انجام دادی؟ آیا تو دوست داشتنی برای کسی نبودی؟ آیا تلاشی کردی؟ ″ و در اخر من خواهم ماند و تنها خودم در مقابل خودم درست همانطور که تمام زندگی ام خودم در مقابل خودم ایستاده بودم و خواهم ایساد.
او هرگز جایی ریشه نمیگیرد و همیشه آماده است بیخبر و ناگاه،به دلیلی که برای خودش پذیرفتنی است برود.
گفت:اشکال نداره، همهی حرفها و گِله کردن تکراری رو دوباره بزن، ولی خواهش میکنم کمی هیجان داشته باش حتی وقتی داری دوباره تکرارش میکنی، برام با شور تعریفش کن، نمیخوام ببینم یه سیگار بگیری دستت به چشمام زل بزنی و برای هر کلمه جون بکنی تا بهم بگیش، آروم و بیجون.